Melancholy Moments

I remember when I was young, I couldn't wait to grow up. The time couldn't come fast enough. I think I thought that once I grew up, I'd have all the answers...and that I'd have no one I had to listen to or answer to.

And now that I'm grown? I miss that innocence. I miss when life was so simple. The reality is, the older you get, the more complicated life gets. As you get older you realize that you're a mere mortal...you can be hurt. You can die. Life doesn't last forever, and neither do friendships. Time changes things, as do circumstances and distance.

Looking back, I think of all the people who've made an impact on my life...my grandmothers, my best friend Melanie, and several others....who are no longer a part of my life. I miss them, dammit! And I'm feeling it more deeply today. I just hope to God, regardless of the circumstances that have taken us away from each other...that they know that they mattered to me...and that I love them. They've indellibly impacted my life and my heart. That will never change.

The upside to life today is that we all have the opportunities to reconnect with people, too. Places like Classmates and Myspace have made it a very distinct possibility. For me, myspace has been a blessing...giving me back the gift of several friendships I'd thought I'd lost to time and distance...that have been rekindled. I guess every dark cloud has a silver lining.